Wednesday, 22 October 2014

Writer's block. Miscellaneous ramblings.

It's frustrating, when you want to write something, but that 'something' is just not coming to you. As I write this, I feel a mixture of anger and sadness within me, slightly scared at the amount of swearing I am doing at the moment. My brain is in need of some relaxation right now. 

I don't really know where my life is going at the moment. Maybe there's some big imminent change about to take place. Or maybe life just sucks sometimes. This year has been pretty hardcore, and I don't think I'll be too sorry to see the back of it. I think turning 40 in December will be a good thing (did I mention that I was soon turning 40? Heh.)

Being sensitive can be a right pain in the arse. As the saying goes 'it is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so very deeply.' I felt like crying tonight. It can be hard for men to cry - which I think is probably psychological more than anything else - and maybe us guys need to let down our guard a little bit. There's also nothing wrong with expressing a bit of anger from time to time - in fact it's important. 

What else have I got to say? I don't fucking know. Oops, I actually swore in my blog. I'm not swearing at anyone, just venting my frustration about the sheer lack of inspiration that is haunting me right now. I would like answers to certain questions, but am not getting them. Damn this writer's block. 

I don't know whether this post is worth publishing. Maybe it will mean something to someone. Hopefully it will. Sometimes I think that having a spiritual perspective on life means that I should be a paragon of virtue. But I'm not, really. Okay, I try to be a good person. But being spiritual doesn't mean that you are perfect. I don't love every single person I come into contact with. I sometimes feel like telling people what I really think of them, and not in a good way.  

But I'm doing my best, and hopefully that will be good enough. I could do with a bit of positive energy coming back to me soon. This Mercury in Retrograde really can be challenging, hopefully the planets will start to behave themselves soon. I definitely get affected by this stuff. 

Trusting that the bigger picture will be revealed in time. But for now it's just one day at a time. 

Peace out
Andy

1 comment:

  1. Good post. Truthful, and how I feel nearly every waking moment of my life. I have all of the signs of success, and all I feel is dead on the inside. Not sure what else to do but keep on keeping on.

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