Thursday, 2 April 2015

Brother - Day 2 of A to Z Blogging Challenge - Things I love

If you are reading my blog for the first time, you won't likely be aware that I had a younger brother who passed away very suddenly recently. Whilst we were never all that close, and I only saw him a few times a year after I moved to a different part of the country, it's a bit crazy to lose a family member in such circumstances. Fortunately, I have been spared any intense emotions over this so far, or I could have been pushed close to or over the edge.

Check out some of the music he did here:
https://soundcloud.com/anton-ventolin

I would like to think that Antony is cheering me on now as I continue with my journey and calling in this world. Death is one thing that is sometimes hard to make sense of, and it seems weird that I survived after I had been through things that, well, make it something of a miracle that I am still alive, and then he died. No-one ever really knows what is going to happen, and even though I expect I have a little while to go before my life mission is complete, it's even more important for me to live life to my best and allow the Divine to work through me.

I never took many pictures of my brother, but here are some:







Things like this make you realise what's really important in life. A few weeks after Antony died, I quit a very stressful job - in some ways I feel a bit of guilt because I wonder if I would have been pushed over the edge had I stayed in that job - like were my circumstances one of the reasons why Antony died. Fortunately, I don't think about that side of things too deeply and have learnt to trust in the process of life as best I can. The course I have been doing this year with a meditation group has been extremely beneficial and helped me to stay strong and start to realise the person I truly am - as well as helping me face some emotional wounds that have been with me since childhood.

Anyhow, that's it for today. As always, if you leave a comment, I will read your blog.

11 comments:

  1. I lost a sister 10 years ago. She was only 34, "too young to die". I also lost a brother when I was 10 and he was 15.

    This made me realize that there is no such thing as life expectancy. We can't even be sure of later on today. Now is all we have - to live, to love, to say what we want to say.

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    1. wow. Crazy huh. Yeah, you're right, now is all we have x

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  2. It's tough to experience such a hard loss. After my grandmother (who was like a second mom to me) died, I spent a few hours every day in prayer. It really helped me through that time. Every moment of our lives matters.

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    1. thank you. Yes prayer is good no matter what your beliefs are x

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  3. I still miss my Dad whenever there are some news - good or bad, that I want to share with him. I think we just have to keep their memories in our hearts. Look after yourself and be well :)

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    1. thanks, yes you're right :)

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  4. I had my younger brother pass away end of 2013 and sister who is the eldest pass away a couple months ago. So I can relate.

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    1. crikey .. crazy isn't it - these kind of things don't seem real sometimes. Great name Mister Weirdo :o)

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  5. I had my younger brother pass away end of 2013 and sister who is the eldest pass away a couple months ago. So I can relate.

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